Orange Party of X'mas

Sorry. No photoshop, no nice pictures.(haha)

X'mas day, we had party in Orange. That was really fun. Everybody bought food and gift. We ate together and exchanged gift. I got Clip Art from Katsuaki, which is so stylish. We played two games. Beer and Soda testing and guessing the words. My group tried hard, but we were not lucky enough to win, haha. We got last price which are two videos made by Masa and Tadami-san. I guess it supposed to be funny, but I couldn't understand why....en....anyway, Toshi will laugh when he watch it later. After the game, we just talked and some people danced. There were first price and second price left, so I palyed some game again to get the prices. Haha, lucky. I did. I got two CDs which made by Taiji-san. IINE.

It was a really nice and fun party. I enjoyed. Thanks for Taiji-san and Masa!!!

Merry Chrtismas !!

Chrtismas tree, chritsmas gift.


Merry Chritsmas Everyone !!

Today is Chritsmas. It is my 6th Chritsmas in America. As always, Chritsmas is kind of boring. The Chritmas in America is so different with the Chritmas in China. I am sure it is different with Japan too. My mom called me last night, she sounded so happy and she said ：Merry Chritsmas! She asked me what I am doing now since it was X'mas eve. I said nothing. She was kind of suprised and asked why I didn't go out and have fun. I said it was too cold outside. She said it was carzy in my hometwon, all young people went out and have fun, all clubs and pubs were full. I said that was a fake Chritsmas. Chritsmas is for family in America, not for friends. My mom laught and said it's alright for those young people, they don't care what is Chrtismas really for.

Yeah, I was I were in China. I could have much fun. Today, I did nothing much. But, I cooked for tonight. I was not going to 'cause I did make-up already. But, I thought for a while. Cooked anyway. Waiting for tonight's party now. It should be fun.

I am here !! I am here !!

Fianlly !!!

I can use my internet agian after two and half days. I was using my internet as normal on 20th. I can't remember what makes me wanna update my Window Media Player to 10.0, but I did anyway. I guess that is how all the problem started. After I updated it, computer asked to restart. So, I just did what computer told me to do. I restarted the computer and... ...COUDLNT'T GET ON the internet. At that moment, I knew something wrong with my computer. However, since my internet has been on and off often before, I didn't really consider as my computer problem. I tried everything that I tried before to put the internet back on, but no matter what I did, the internet was still off.

The next day, my manger came to check and Tadami-san came to help me out too. But, my internet was still not working. When I have internet, I always feel nothing. At the point that I couldn't use internet, I felt I needed it too much. I went to Sugi's room to check my email last night, and chatted with my Chinese friend who is in Osaka on MSN. She knows computer very well, and she asked me what was wrong with my internet. I told her everything, and she told me that she had same problem two weeks ago, it is cased by virus. She told me how to slove the problem and I did what she told me. Guess what! It works.

Finally. I can use my internet. I am so happy and thanks for everybody who helped me. My manger, Tadami-san, Sugi and My Chinese friend who named TUZI.

A Short talking

I saw one of my Taiwanese friend, who I use to be close with, on the MSN today. Haven't talk to her for long time, so I wanted to let her know about Ivy's news. I was just gonna tell her about Ivy and just gonna ask how is her doing, but our talking on MSN become a teach lesson from her to me. I mean in a bad way.

She asked me how I am doing. I said same as before. She said havent' see me for long time, so what is same as before. I told her that I am OK. Then... I don't know how, she gave my life a defintion which is messed up. I was suprised 'cause she just gave my life a definition without really know what's going on over here. This is my frist time feel that she is too much. I always think she is nice. I mean she is nice, but today I felt she was too too much.

She told me:" Because you don't trust yourself and others, that's why you got one, but want another one." I was like:" What thing are you talking about?" She is my ex-bf's best female friend, and I know they have close relation with each other still. She told me that she cares about me that why she said all those things to me. I thank her. I do thank her for care about me. But she doesn't even know half of the story about me.

Well. I really don't wanna have contact with ex-old-known-friends anymore. No more. No more.

Winter Break: NO MORE CLASS, BUT...

My winter break is started today. But I don't really feel anything. It is hard to believe that the semester is gone already. I feel like I will go to class on Monday.

I guess I finally can sleep longer everyday, and doing nothing.

Kind of boring ne. I am waiting for Tosih come back. Waiting, waiting, waiting. Oh my god.

Try, Just try..

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Just try to study about Phontoshop. I feel I know nothing about it, and can't make really nice pcitures. En... I don't know. I have to study more ne.

Visiting Ivy

GOD WILL BLASS U.

I went to hiospital to visit Ivy with Jae this afternoon. When we got there, Jae went to buy some drinks. Bon called me and told me he saw my car. Bon went to downstair to buy lunch. I was happy to see him, but worried about Ivy. So, I didn't know if I should smile to him or be sad to him. So, I guess I was kind of wired. Bon looked alright, we talked a littlie bit. We went to 7th floor which Ivy is in. Bon said Ivy is having a small surgery, so we had to wait in waiting room. Ivy's father and borther were there too. Her father looked relax and funny. I was expect her father be so worried and serious looking 'cause I know that will be how my father looks like. Ivy's borther is younger, I guess maybe same age as Bon. Both of them looked relax and nice, which was good.

After 20 mins, Jae and I went to see Ivy. I was kind of scared before I went into Ivy's room because I don't know how Ivy will looks like. I almost stop infront of the door, but I went into the door. And, I saw Ivy. Ivy lied on the bed, she looked so small. Her eyes were half open, half close. There were many cannulas get into her mouth, she had a patch on her head. I prepared to see bad condition, so when I saw Ivy's foot moving, I was happy. Her body was moving around slowly and she was yawning for couple times. I was so happy to see her like that. I went close to her and talk to her. When I called her name and told her I am Shanshan, I saw her uper body moved. I think she knows, she could feel us. I almost cried, but I contorl myself. It is not a good thing to cry at that point. Bon really took good care of her. I think Bon is the best one for Ivy. I was touching to see Bon take care of Ivy that much. Hard time for him and Ivy.

Ivy will be better soon, I think. She will be alright. Bon and Ivy will be back as before, like all normal couples, fight, love, kiss.

God, please blass them.

Final Week

Best wish from Japan.

How's everybody's final going?I finished my Japanese final. I guess I did alright, but I know my speaking was sucks. Well, I didn't really study for speaking, that's why it was sucks. I didn't really study for listerning and reading either, but I did alright 'cause the exam was much easiler than what we learned. Writing was hard, our writing exam was took home exam. We had to write 3 pages about our life, our school, japanese class ane friends. I guess I did alright too, but I used more than 3 hours to write the 3 pages. .... ...

Toshi is doing alright in Japan.

My Chinese friend, who was in VA with me, is working in OSAKA now. So nice. I get chance to talk with her on MSN, haha we talked in Japanese a little bit last night. She is a very nice and unique perosn. I only have 5 or 6 Chinese friends left in my life, and she is one of them. Well, wish everything goes good for her.

2 more fianls to go. En... ...

YASU!!!

En... When did we take this picture? I don't remember.

I found this picture in Masa's computer. Masa told me that is from Yasu. I was so suprised to see this picture after Yasu left UB half year. Yasu is so cute. I like him as a little boy, haha. He has very cute face when he smiles. Picture reminds me about him and the crazy spring of 2004. I am wondering what Yasu is doing now. Hope he is doing good.

Love from My Mom

The purple scarf from my mom, which warm up my heart.

My mom send a purple scarf to me with a letter, two books and one New Year card. I really like the purple scarf that my mom send to me. It is not a expensive or brand scarf. It is a very cheap thing, but it is the love from my mom. I use to feel nothing from whatever my parents did for me. But, after I am in love with Toshi and tried so hard to love him, take care of him. I can feel how my parents feel about me. I am appreciated the love from my parents and they supported my dections. Once I make up my mind for something, I won't change. My parents tried to understand me and support me. I really thank them for that. My father send an email to me and told me to remember no matter what will happen in future, I will always have a home to go back for. I was really touch by that.

I thank my parents for their love and care. Because of them, I can have a good life and a loving heart for Toshi and other people. I learned how to care about others and love others from the love of my parents. I love them much. I will keep my love for Toshi and others 'cause that is a part of love from my parents too.

The afternoon in NY

Shanshan And Enri. Enri looks cute ne! Shanshan looks so tired ne. ( I was)

12-8 was such a busy day.

I had Japanese class in the morning from 9:30 to 10:45. Then, I went to Masa's place for help. I needed to buy the airfare for Toshi from HIS, which all the Japanese know, it is the largest Japanese travel company. I could call HIS, but I thought someone who can speak Japanese will be easiler to talk to the sales. Masa just woke up, we had coffee while we were buying the airfare. The salesman name is Sasaki. Such a nice, well-known name. Masa talked with him about 20 mins and finally bought the airfare. I decided to go pick it up and sent to Toshi by myself because I think I better do the things which matters to me by myself. I send an email to my Pof. and told her that I couldn't go to the last class. And, then I thought about Enri. Since it is the week before final, all my friends who are students are busy. Enri has nothing to do everyday, and I think she would be boring in UB. I called Tadayoshi and asked Enri to go with me.

I planed to take 1:20 train to NY. Tadami-san asked me to take him to the parking place close to the train station, so he could pick up his yoko-san's car and then he could take Enri and I to the train station. I was kind of stupid and decided to go to the Bank before that. I went to the Bank and came back to pick up Tadami-san around 1:05. Then, dropped Tadami-san close to the parking place, and came back, called Enri, and waited for Tadami-san to come back. Tadami-san came back at 1:17, hahahahaha. Only 3 mins left, so Tadami-san speed to the train station, but too late. We saw the train went alway from the car. Tadami-san took us to Dunkin'Donuts' because we had to wait for a hour for next train. We had good chat over there for one hour. At 2:20, Enri and I got on the train to NY.

We arrived in NY at 3:40, and find the HIS so easy. We were surprised how big HIS is and how many people were working in there. Normally, I buy airfare in Chinese company, but all those Chinese company are small and not so profession looking. But, HIS looks great. That is one thing I like Japanese culture more than Chinese. Japanese people are so united and dedicated to their professions. Sasaki-san came to take care of us and he was really nice. After we came out of HIS, I found Kinko's, and send the airfare to Toshi. I hope Toshi can get it soon. It was around 5, Enri and I was hungry. So, we were looking for a place to eat, so hard to find one. Anyway, we found it later.

The funny thing was when we tried to go back to station. We were trying to take the 6:30 train back to Bridgeport, so we took the subway. However, we got lost. So, we planed to take the 6:35 and 6:58 trains, but we missed all because of the subway. We couldn't find the right subway to the train station. Fianlly, we took the taxi. Haha. We took some pictures in the taxi. I looked so bad, but Enri looked good. I was tired, so tired.

But, it was good. Fianlly, I send airfare to Toshi. I really hope everything will be alright for Toshi and I. We tried so hard this 4 months for each other and our own life. Also, I want give the best wish for Ivy. Ivy is still in coma. I just hope she will get well soon. Best best wish for her.

GOD will Bless you. Ivy Ganbate!!

Bon and Ivy (3-17-2004)

Friend GouLi called me tonight. I was having diner with Tadami-san and Masa. He told me that Bon's girlfriend, Ivy, had car accident yesterday afternoon with Ailen. Ailen was driving on high way around 4 p.m, and Ivy was with him. The road was icey, that was how the accident happened. Ailen is ok, but Ivy got hurt. She got cerebral concussion, and still in coma, haven't wake up yet. That is a frightful news to know.

I am worried about Ivy and also Bon. I am sure Bon loves Ivy a lot, and he must be so worried and hurt. I called him and he told me he is OK. I know he is not. I can't even think what if Toshi and I in that kind of situation. It must be so hard.

I wish everything will be alrigt for Ivy, and hope she would get well soon. God please bless Ivy and Bon.

Final Two Weeks

From yesterday to next Friday is our final two weeks.

I already finished two of my classes and one final paper. But, I still have a long way to go. My most fear is Japanese class. It became hard after mid-term and I couldn't really follow up as before. I am having some hard time with it, and hoping I won't do too bad at this end. Speech class is good, I have one more fianl speech to make, but it won't be a problem for me and I know I am getting A from that class.

Other classes are in the middle, I don't think they will be so bad or so good. This senmester was hard, I hope everything will become good from this point. I really hope so.

GANBATE NE!!!!

UNH Dance Show

Masa, Katusaki, Mayu and I went to UNH to see the Dance show which Soul Beat should be in. We left UB around 7:20. I had to stop two times for gas. When we got there, it's almost 8. And, we couldn't find where the place is. I asked a student and he led us to there. There was many people outside of the hall. We found out that there were not enough seats left, they only would take 21 people more. Lucky, we were the last four!!!

The dance Hall is very small, only 1/4 of UB's. But it was all full. People were exciting about the dance show. Well, it was not too bad, but was not too good enough. We video typed more of the shows. It was fun to see people make mistakes, haha(i am so mean), but some of the dancer should had done must better. There were so many girls, but not many guys. Soul Beat guys should have to there, they will make everyone so exciting.

The show, which is not so good, but it was fun. After the show, we went to eat and talked for long time. It was fun.

But, I really need to study this week. Final is coming!!