I couldn't sleep but I am already tired.
Maybe it's the coffee,
or maybe the bed is too warm.
What is keeping me up with a tired body?
I wonder
does anyone still come to this blog?
does anyone still remember this blog?
It's all doesn't matter now,
I need a place to write my thoughts,
No matter if anyone wants to know or not.
How many nights were like tonight already?
I lost cont with it.
Close my eyes, and see thoughts flying by.
Current, past, future,
Hopes, wishes, dreams,
Missed ones, loved ones, hated ones,
Regrets, happinese, afarids.
Or...just lonlnese which keeps me unsleep.
Tabacco's smoke flows in the dark night,
so beautiful that happinese won't understand.
There is no promise to keep me being someone elase.
How to be who you are with hisotry of unforgetable?
People who aremoving forward as new born baby,
either have strong mind or cold heart.
Since when I start to smile to unacceptable?
I want to be the me who never lost soul before,
but no matter how I could be like her outside,
I still can't kick out the shaows at the night as tonight.
Something once you have done,
you will never get use to.
Some people once your heart dies for,
you will never forget.
Some hurts once you have on,
you will never be recovered.
One person's power is not enough to change anything,
but I am too afarid that I'd love to be powerless.
Now...I don't remember anymore,
never loved, never happened, never remembered,
but why I still cry sometimes?
What makes me cry?
Maybe just the life.
Surpisely,
the one I missed most isn't the one I thought.
The ones who I loved much,
are dead.
I only can think like that to be able to love again.
If you are the one who is willing to love me,
please don't ask my past,
just simply accept who am I today.
'Cause I promise you,
Death won't return to alive.
4 a.m again.
the time in my dream was 28:00.
the time was your death.
Oyasumi.