Hard Steps

Is everything has to be this hard?


Is true happinese really hard to get?









I am so tired today.
Don't want to hear anymore problems.









I am sorry, father...

1.2.3.....FIGHT~!

Last night...........

Panashie finally showed me cat's duty.

After went back to my room, 
I was showing Tomoatsu kun some new musics 
which I just got.

Panashie......
jumped into a small space between my desk and closet.
”What are you doing？”
panashie didn't care about me as before.
I just took her out from the space
and she "miao~~" to me as not happy.

Soon, after tomoatsu kun went back,
I was enjoying the music.
But I heard some sounds from the side of closet,
"aaa...panashie is palying agian." I was thinking,
However~~~!!! Panashie was on the bed.
EEEEEEEE............
what is that~~~!!!???? 

I told tomoatsu kun 
there is something in my room from MSN;
and he came to check it for me.

But the sound was gone, and panashie was normal.
Tomoatsu kun and I moved the closet a little bit far
from the wall, I saw......

A MOUSE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 

oh my god.....
panashie, now it is your job to protect your owner~~~! 
I put panashie into the space agian,
and very soon....
she came out with the mouse in her mouth.

GOOD JOB~~~!!!!

I was only happy for a second....
'cause panashie started to palying with the mouse.....

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.......my god......
how i can get this mouse out of my room???

Tomoatsu kun took a sweep
and tried to sweep the mouse out of my room....
but it was hard 'cause panashie was playing with it.

It took a long time to find the right time,
Tomoatsu kun and I just could watching pana havign fun.

Finally~~~~!! A CHANCE~~!!!
Tomoatsu kun did a big sweep~~~!
Like a person is palying ice hocky~~~
The mouse was flying away from my room~~~!!

OH~~~THANK GOD~~~!!

It took all most a hour~~~!!
But thanks to Tomoatsu kun and PANASHIE~~~~
I could have a nice night of sleep~~~~!!










but.....how did the mouse come in........

where

where did u go

i miss u so



























where are you

Waiting

Those days
Nothing happen that much.

My position in life is working and waiting.
There are things which out of my power, so I can only wait. 
and do what I gotta do.

I went to swim for two days.
Swim is good~~~!!! I wanna have nice body~~

EVERY HURTS THAT YOU GOT
IS A STEP CLOSE TO MATURE. 

みんなさん、頑張ってよ～～～














GIVE UP IS LOSE.

ROAD

Boss said:


LIFE IS A ONE WAY ROAD, THERE IS NO U-TURN.

人生是一條單行道，沒有回頭路。

（無題）

"Don't make me worry ne."


Could not come out from my mouth.

The highest level of love is the one 
which can be tested by the ordinary years of passing. 


愛的最高境界是經得起平淡的流年。

FOR THE 3RD MONTHS

DON'T BE AFRAID OF GETTING HURT AGIAN

GIVING LOVE

KEEPING DREAMS

TRYING HARD

BEING GOOD





MISSING YOU
LOVING YOU
DREAMING ABOUT YOU





I WILL ALWAYS BE YOUR SIDE
EVEN IF I GET HURT ONE MORE TIME.


GIVING UP IS LOSING.
I FIGHT TO LOVE AND TO LIVE.

I AM NOT WEAK.

Raining Day

Another raining day today.

This year's spring is coming late,
Yeah,
We had soft warm winter.

Kind of fit with my life,
I had soft and warm winter with you,
Cold spring with myself.
I guess this summer won't be hot either.

My dream of last night was so much going on,
so many people appeared in my dream,
Ones that I love, ones that I hate.

I didn't want to get up in the morning
'cause you were talking and smiling to me
so I stayed more
wish to see you agian.

While thinking about my unsuccessful life,
and upseting about myself,
I remember a old song:

THE MEANING OF SUCCESS IS DEFEATED YOURSELF.

still,
I won't give up.

Balance Check

It's hard to keep a good balance in life.

Many things need a good balance:

1. Money:
--how much is enough?
--how much should I spend a month?
--what is the line of cheeseparing and frugality？
--what is the line of dissipate and use on the right things?

2. Work
--how much is work too much?
--how hard is work too hard?

3. Food
--how to eat to be health?
--how much drinks are too much?
--how many food is too little?

4. Health
--how often should we work-out?
--how often should we take break from life?

5. Love
--how much is giving too much?
--how little is not giving enough?
--how deep is too deep of love?
--how selfish is too selfish becuase of love?


I always not good at keep good balance....
Sometimes too much, sometimes not enough...

It's hard to keep balance
I am trying to not do too much to you
I am afraid it will be too much for you
sometimes I think it is not fair,
but
I don't want to be a selfish person.






even love is selfish.

Wine

OHHHHHHH

I tried some wine last night. Really just a little bit.

I was in my room and tried to be relax.

Watching TV show, having diner and little bit wine.

OHHHHHHH

The wine which I bought is not that dry, but not sweet either,
I was wishing for sweeter.

BUT

SUGOI~!! I became so warm after drunk the wine, and face & body were pink~! And, sleepy, and, felt soft. It was not bad feeling, I think if I drink more, everything will goes wrong. (You won't believe how little did I drink....)

I decided to go sleep even it was only 10 p.m.
HOWEVER~~~!!!
I couldn't....I was sleepy and wanted to sleep, but couldn't .....

So I was just watching TV on bed until maybe 3 a.m......

Is that what happen? If you drink wine or sake, you won't be able to sleep later ? Or just I couldn't sleep.....

Remembered

I forget

there is a life of yours

which I will never belong to

a life of yours

which you will never put me into

I forget

Our story is only in over sea

not in where you are now

Just remembered.

a place in you keep me as unknown









God. Please don't make me lose agian.

WASABI --FIGHT !

Boss' wife got mad last Friday... She had a fight with one sushi chef...

I didn't know that there was a long time problem between her and the sushi chef. After they had fight, she complained to me about the sushi chef, and the sushi chef complained to me about her too....I couldn't go home soon after work 'cause she asked me to go for a drink with her. I know that she has no one to talk to in her daily life, that she wanted to tell someone her inside problems....We spend 2 hours in T.G.I Friday....I got home almost 3 a.m.......(at that point, I understand why sometimes man can't go home soon after work).

Then, one waiter quit job the next day because the fight....he liked the sushi chef that was his way to support sushi chef, but I don't think he did the right thing...he is 25 years old, but acting like 18 years old. Without one waiter, boss asked me to work two more afternoons....good for me? I guess on the money part it is good, but I can't slow my plans for future too. Still, I will go work for this week because I can not not help them when they needed. It's just not right....(I hope they can find another waiter soon)

There is one thing which I don't like about working there...is the sushi chef (the one who had fight with the boss' wife). He is nice, but he always tried to take something from me...like he'd hold my shoulder, put his head close to my shoulder, try to hug me...I really HATE it....lucky the waiter quit 'cause he was doing same thing too. Tried to touch my hand or touch my face....I HATE THOSE PEOPLE. NO RESPECT...but the sushi chef is the boss' friend....I was happy to know that he won't work there no more after June. 2 more months...

Well....that's how things goes at the resturant. I know I won't work there forever, now it is just the time of perpare for the future.