I WANNA LONG HAIR!!!!!!

I WANNA LONG HAIR YO!!!!

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Today, I bought the wig for party. I put it on, and I like how I look!!! I always forget how did I look in long hair. My hair was kind of this long before, but i cut it short. Now, my hair is too short and I don't hate it but I just perfert longer hair.

I guess it is good that I changed my hair style around many times, so I can know which kind of hair style fit me the most. I think longer hair fits me the best. I will grow my hair long now. I like long hair always.

I hope I don't look so bad now with this short hair. I really like the long hair o, maybe I will just wear the wig even after the party!!! Hahahaha!!!!

Too silly to wishful

5 things that too silly to wishful, but I am obsessed.
1. Jaly. I don't know why I like her so much. Well, I like beautiful girls. I think I like her because she is just a normal girl. Because she is normal, it is unbelieveable that she can be so beautiful.

2. Dream world. I don't like this world which I live in. Sucks, sucks, sucks.

3. Japanese school uniform. This is so silly. Well, I remember the first time I saw Japanese school uniform when I was really young. And, I thought everyone will have an uniform like that when we become older. Sadly, not really. I always wish my school can offer us nice uniform. Well, my high school did offer us uniforms, but I don't really like them. Now, I am passed the age to wear school uniform. It just a uncoming true dream for me now. It is too silly to wear one right now even if I have chance.

4. Childhood. I wish I could be a kid forever. I wish I could back the time before my family became rich, became cold, became no more love.

5. Forever love. Is there forever love? I don't know. What a dream, right? Can I just dream forever?

Run Run 600

Little Colorful

Finally, The little colorful is MINE!!!

I got the little colorful last SEP. , but I never change the title under my name. So, druing the whole year, the little colorful was belong to someone elase. I like the little colorful a lot, finally, I decided go thought all those DMV goverment paper stuff. I went to DMV this morning, and got the title changed form. Then, the guy told me I have to have the insurance frist. So, I went to Nationwide , which was used by my friend before. The price was too high for me, I don't think I can pay that price. I went home and my friend told me there is a cheaper insurance company, so I called and their price is $500 lower. Of cause, I bought the insurance from that company. Then, I went back to DMV. There was a long line, and I saw Shotaro and Kasu infront of the line. They were there for car stuff too. I waited for more almost 2 hours to get everything. And, I get a new plate!!! Yeah, yeah, the little colorful is mine now!!! I spend more than $600 to get the little colorful ne. SO expensive.

I feel old now, I have to do all those things that adult do. I never think I am an adult, well, I nevre wanna be one, but I feel I have to be one and trying to be a one this year. I need to ne!! Anyway!!! Little colorful!!! Work hard o!! Love u , love u.

The Day Finally Come

Another of my few good friends, Chun(チュン）

I came to this country ( USA ) with her six years ago, and she was only 19 and I was only 18. We went to same school in VA ( Can went there too), and became good friends. She is always study hard, work hard and live hard. I think she is the only girl who I know that never enjoy to shopping and always try to saving the money for better things. She is so different with me. I am the one who don't wanna grow up and she is the one who try to grow up. Of cause, she did much better job than me.

After she left VA at the yeat 1999. She get up go school and started work. She met couple guys and finally got married at the year 2001 ( I think). She has her first baby(Aripl Lei). At the same time, I went to school noramlly, and had frist boyfriend, and break up, and transfered to UB... ... She couldn't go back to China 'cause she failed her F-1 visa. Fainlly, she got her green card this fall and she is going back to China the first time of the 6 years!!

It is a such a long time! But, I am really happy for her because she has almost everything a woman wanna. A rich husband, a happy family, a cute child, a relaxing life and many good friends. So nice.

Back to Alone

I had such wonderful time with Can.

Can left Bridgeport to Maryland this noon at 12:30. After my morning class, I took her to the train staion. We hugged each other before she leave, that is not a common thing for Chinese people to do. I didn't feel too bad at first since we can see each other kind of easy. But, after my afternoon class, I started to feel sad when I was walking to my house alone. Yeah, I am back to alone now.

I had really good time to be with her. I got time to speak my hometown language which I haven't speak for long long time. We went to eat our hometown food in one of the most well-known SICHUAN restaurant in NY. Food was really good. We went to SOHO, and I bought two pair of shoes!!!! En.... spend too much money ne!

I really happy that Can came to visit me. She is a wonderful person. I have to study more that I didn't study much after Can come. I should back to my daily-normal-boring-lonely-sucks life now. AA... start to miss the one that I always miss a lot now. Ganbaru ne, Shishamo.

灿（カン）is in the house!!

CAN and Shishamo

My Chinese good friend CAN came to visit me from Maryland yesterday. She visited me last winter, but she only stayed for 2 days and I was working and got sick. So, I didn't spend much time with her. This time, I have to go school during the day time, but I am taking her to NY after my school. We went to HN yesterday afternoon 'cause she wanted to visit YALE. However, YALE is boring, nothing to really see. We came back soon and just took our time for talking and relaxing.

This morning, I went to three of my classes and CAN just stayed at my house and relax. After school, we went to NY. CAN wanted to cut her hair in a nice salon, so I took her to AKI's place. AKI moved her shop to a new place, which is very nice. CAN cut her hair shorter, which we all like it. Yeah, she looks very cute and nice in the new hair style. And, for me, I had to cut my dead ends of my hair. As you all know, my hair is so bad!! I had to cut those dead ends to keep my new hair health. So, my hair is kind of short now. I don't really like short hair, but I can't do nothing about it. I am going to keep grow my hair and just cut the dead ends once a while. I still wanna long hair.

After hair cut, we went to East Village. CAN never eat any Japanese food expect sushi and shashimi. We didn't order a lot 'cause I don't really know those food's name. But, we did have good meal o! We went for a coffee after that and went to Japanese markt. We bought something for our hair. It was raining in NY, and it was cold. We will go to SOHO tomorrow, I hope it won't be raining again.

CAN will stay here two more days, I really happy and enjoy the time with her. She is one of my few good friends. I like her a lot. HAHAHA, we are having good time together, I am really happy that she's visit.

Over there, Over here

SUN FROM OVER THERE

Over there is THE SUN, over here is THE SUN. Sunset over there, Sunrise over here. Same brightness, same shine. You are watching it and thinking about over here. I am watcing it and thinking about over there. Sunshine too bright, hurting my eyes, I need some tears to cool my eyes down. It is too bright, too bright.

Happy Birthday to Kayoko and Kuni!!

Happy Birthday!!!


Last night, We (Risa, Miki, Mayumi, Momo, Mayu, Katsuaki, Masa, Kuni, Tomoya and I) gave Kayoko a suprise " happy birthday". We all met outside of Kayoko's window around 12 a.m. Risa called her and we singed "Happy Birthday" to her. She saw us from the windwo and came to downstair to thank us. It was a nice thing to do and to see happy smile from Kayoko's face.

Tonight, It is Kuni's birthday party, but I can't go. I have to study for next week. My friend is coming next monday, so I won't have anytime to study. GOMEN NE, KUNI!!! But, Happy birthday to U o!! U guys are so young!!! I am old now.

Name is PANASHIE パナシエ

パナシエ

Finally, Kitty has a name now. It is Panashie. Toshi gave the name to her and told me it is a drinks' name. I don't mind if the name is a drinks' name or not. The name is cute, but SOSOSOSO hard for me to say it. Everytime, I call her, I will be like:" panash..i..a? sh..i..e?" Haha, she won't respond me, of cause. I start to get use to the name now. Anyway, the things that Panashie does is eat and sleep. Everyday and always. And, when she is hungry, she looks at Kafka A LOT!!! Oh, my god. don't eat ur friend!! Kafka is ur friend o!!.

After all, Panashie is cute. I am happy that having her as my pet and friend. Love U o, Panashie!!

KAFKA!!!!!

WHAT THE HELL!!!

Today, after school, I was driving back to my home from the bank and thinking about that I will take Kafka for a walk. Today is nice, strong sunshine, Kafka likes it. I went home and opened the door. I was shocked by what I saw!! I saw what you see in the picture of Kafka. Oh, my GOD!!! Kafa just like that and didn't even move at all. "He must be die!" I thought " But, when and how? He was so fine this morning when I left home." I was so shocked and frighten 'cause I hate die animal body a lot, I am actally afraid of die animal body. I was so frighten, I couldn't even go into my room. I just stayed outside of the door and looked at Kafa, and thinking what should I do. I called Masa for help, but Masa was in class. I was thinking how disappointed and sad Toshi will be if I tell him later. While I was thinking all those things, I heard the water sound. I looked up to the tank, and I saw Kafka moved!!!! I stoond up and went into my room and shaked the tank a bit, and I saw Kafa moved again!!! Oh, God! Kafka wasn't die. Thank You God!!! He just couldn't make to face up after he fell lay down somehow. I guess he tried, but he coulnd't make it, so he was just relaxing. GOD! That really scared me.

After that, I took Kafka for walk. I don't want he die. I need take care of him more ne!! That was honto scare!!!

Loving Fall

I love all those nature things fall around me from sky. Now is the most beautiful time of the year. On the side of I-95 north, exit 53, the trees are all changed color to yellow, orange and red. It is a happy moment to driving through there. I love to see all those trees, they are like from the world of dream. And, when i was driving home from work today, the leaves from those trees fell to my car with the wind. That was so beautiful.

Lucky I am stay in US 'cause my hometwon doesn't have beautiful seasons. I like CT a lot 'cause it has nice seasons. Srping, there is beautiful sakura, pink and white, all fall on my heart. Summer, there is ocean, waves come and go, sounds so romatic. Fall, there is falling beautiful leaves, dancing around my soul with the winds. And, the winter, there is simple, pure snow, so pure, so clean, just like a newborn baby (sadly, when they touch the earth, they become adult, complex and drity).

Mid-term week is coming. I have to study hard for my classes, but let's enjoy the falling leaves. May they give all of us the luck.

WAKE UP!!!

She is too lazy. That's the only thing that I can say. She is so not like Lemocha. Of cause, she is more beautiful then lemo, but lemo was much cute, I think. The only thing that she does is eating and sleeping. She eats, then sleeps. Always, always.

The only time she move around or yell to me is when she is hungry. Anyway, that's cat, people tells me. I guess it is good to have her since she doesn't make prbolems for me. Well, well. Wake up sometimes! I wanna paly with you!!!

It is time to fly with the smoke

All I had that I already gave, and all I have left is the best wish for you.

The one, who can not be with you, is not the best for you. I am not the best for you.

I know you will find the one who is good enough for you to spend whole life with. Just wish you the best, and I shall stay or go like the smoke.

March - July - A Year

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Look back, I just passed my 24th birthday. Had nice time with many of my friends.

Look back, I just came back from NY with Toshi. Always share wonderful time together.

A Year passed already. We cried, we fought, we loved, we laughed.

Just keep my best, do my best, try my best. May GOD smile to me one day.

Sun will Shine

I didn't care about a lot of things which around me, excpet the one I care. Now, I have to take care of those things 100 times more than before. My money, my study, my car, my friends, my sprite and so much more. It is a very hard thing to do, very hard. I can't do them all perfectly at the same time, but I try.

I email my parents more than before, and talk with them more. I care about my car and the way I drive more than before. I worry and think about my money more, and try to use them in a good way. I care about the love one more in different ways. I study harder and harder and try to do my best. It is hard, all of them.

I guess that is a part of grow up. I remember in the Japanese moive " Blue Spring ", 雪男 asked 九條: " you like high school, right?" 九條 answered:" En." 雪男 said:" like it too much, and don't wanna think about future, right?" 九條 answered:" En." I guess I like being a student and child too much, and don't wanna grow up. But, my time has come. I have to grow up now, can't be a child forever, no matter how much I wanna.

Toshi sent message to me and he told me that it has been raining for a week in Japan, and will rain for later of this week too. But, there is not forever rain, sun will shine. Ne. Sun will shine. I have to go through this time to be better. To be better for everybody and myself. It is time to be adult now. I am not just a little girl any more.

Run to Me

Unknown name kitty

I was talking with Toshi on the phone outside of my house, and I saw a kitty ran to me across from the street. It is a normal thing that kitty across street, but this kitty was different. She was yelling to me while runing across street, and came to me really fast. I was so suprised and looked at her. She kept yelling and using her body touch my legs. She is so cute, too cute to let her go. Toshi told me to keep her on another side of phone. After phone call, I took her in my room, and gave her food, which left by Lemo. Of cause, she was hungry. It was almost 12 a.m. I needed to sleep for next day, so I went to bed. The kitty jumped on my bed and slept beside me. That was so cute. I was really happy.

The next day, Toshi told me she might be pupu every way while I went work. I was worried, but I did put the sand box for her. When I came back from work, I found out she pupued in the sand box, and kept everything clean. I took shower for her, which she didn't enjoy a lot, but I know that she needed one. I guess she use to be a house cat even she doesn't have any name tag on. And, she use to be arounded by people a lot 'cause she just like to be with me. Now, she is on my computer desk and just laying there by my mouse.

She is really cute and lady. I haven't give her the name yet 'cause I am asking Toshi gave her one. After I get the name, I will buy a name tag for her and bring her to do health exam. She is really cute. I think she is a gift from GOD who knows that I am so lonely right now. I thank GOD for that. I will take care of her and be really nice to her.

Ne! CUTE KITTY!

MASA 22

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MASA

We had a suprise party for Masa tonight at Orange. Tomoya, Taiji, Nozomi and Taizu perpared a lot for Masa, and other people went there around 8:30. We were waiting for Masa, but didn't notice Masa was coming. When Masa entered the room, of cause, he was suprised, but so did we. HAHA, that was a funny moment.

Tomoya, Taiji, Nozomi and Taizu bought a lot of food and soda from stop shop as birthday gift for Masa, included the shopping car. Of cause, Masa was happy. Everybody was happy. We ate pizza, and cake. Masa was attacted by Taiji with the cake. Then, Kuni was attacted by Masa with the cake. Later, Tomoya was attacted by Masa with the beer, and later.... .... most of people were attacted by water!!!! Me too!!! I was so wet and cold. Daisuke was only wearing underwear! Haha, that was a funny party.

Well, Happy birthday, Masa. U help me a lot always. I really thank u o!