LIVE LOVE LEARN

LIVE, LOVE, LEARN. I saw this three words in Ms. Kim Davis's homepage. What a right order. Live frist, Love someone, Learn something from it. My life at this point is the learning point. I lived without dream, and loved with my whole heart; but I didn't learn. Now, it is learning time. I finally understand what I had created is what I got now.

I use to think my luck is not good. Everyone ealse has better life than me, easier and happier life than me. They all got what I want to have, I envy them. Now I think my luck is not none, I had many. Many chances to have what I want, but I let them go. I lost my own luck by my own hands.

Thank you for loving me; loving a person as me; really thank you.

Somking Winter Ash

Those days, I felt so hard sometimes. I know that I am a weak person, and always want to be with someone. But I also know that I should become stronger and better. I am looking for a way to reduce my stress. I pormised Masa to not somking, and I want to keep my pormise.
If I somke by myself, no one will know. Masa won't know either, but I feel it is one kind of cheating. I don't want lie to Masa about anything. And I want to prove to myself that I am a good person and can be strong.

I found out how music has great power now. I love R&B/SOUL now, I love the songs which touch my heart, and I feel my soul is gone with the music, across ocean and go into to another soul.

Winter is finally here, cold air touchs my naked face. Lips' skin is coming off because of too dry, kind of hurts. No snow's winter is colder than ever. Maybe it is because you are not here. I warm myself up with believe and love in you.

Future will come, hope dreams will come ture too.

わさびの日

I was looking for part time job from two weeks ago. I want to find a Japanese resturant waitress work since waitress in Japanese resturant can make money faster than other jobs. I started to searching on the internet about Japanese resturants around here, and called one by one. Fianlly, one resturant called me and asked me to go try-out. The resturant's name is WASABI.

WASABI is not a big resturant, only 6 people work there inculde me. The boss and boss's wife are very young, they are only 30s. Boss doesn't talk too much, and wife is the one who is dealing with customers. After 3 days of working there, I felt the wife is a very strong and smart woman. She told me that tow things are important: 1.Having plan for future; 2.if you decide to do something, then do your best. Ha.....what a good advice. Every time when she told me something, I felt she touched my weaknese.

頑張る！This is the only word that I can tell myself.

Dream Chaser

When average people start to having a dream for future and start to chasing it? I have been thinking about this question.
I don't know if 26 years old is late to find a dream or not. But this is my frist time try hard every day for one dream. And, it is frist time I felt that how hard is it to make dream come ture.

I am offically a DREAM CHASER now.

I never thought make a dream come ture is so hard. I guess it is because I never tried to make one dream come ture. Yes, how many dreams did I have before? Small dreams and unreal dreams....so many of them, but how many that I tired for them? Now this dream is the biggest one so far in my life, and first time that I don't want to give up for it.

Life had been easy for me. I finally found out that no one will give you the happinese that you want; you have to find it by yourself. Then share this happinese with the person that you love; you will get more happinese from that.

頑張ってね。DREAM CHASER.

Life is not a easy love song

"When you were missing her, you couldn't tell her;

When you were thinking her, you couldn't see her;

When you were looking at her, you couldn't hug her;

When you were crying for her, you couldn't feel her;

When you were loving her, you couldn't kiss her....S

he didn't know what have her done until she feels what you felt."

I have been trying to fine a job and study for a week now. It's really hard...once agian, I believe that I was sopiled badly and thought this world is too easy. Haven't cry because of without you for long time, and haven't cry because of one song. やはり私は何を知らないです。ずっと利己的でした。Ha....more think about before more I felt bad about myself . Honto dane...human won't care about things/people which they have now, only once they feel they will lose the things/people. Honto...learned life from a hard way ne....

"頑張っれ." You said to her.

気持ちは何ですか？信じるいいですか？信じて。私は君が信じる。君も私に信じてください。

私は頑張リます。

~~ONE LOVE~~!!!

To be a right person

TO BE A RIGHT PERSON----for my life of the year of 2005 and 2006

Too many things happened because of losing mind. I finally learned that I have to be what I should have to and want to be. Not only a better person, but a right person.

I use to be a right person when I was younger. I believed the things that I learned from school textbook, believed that white is white and black is black, believed if you give love and smile that you will get them back too, believed that if you love someone that you must should marry with the person, believed good and bad....I use to disagree with my older friends about what they think is true in this world. I use to be a stronger person.

From the time, I got a lot of love from a good guy; a lot of hurt from another guy, my soul became weak and my mind became mess-up. I forgive what is the RIGHT means, and only choose the way of protacting myself, didn't care about others' feeling. I was becoming someone who I hate much now. Friends started to misunderstanding me, doubtting my personality and losing believe in me. I still thought I was doing unharmful things. Until I almost gonna lose someone who I thought I would never lose, I discovered I had been making huge mistakes.

Now I discovered what I use to believe before is what I should have to believe still. I shouldn't change myself because of scared of others. I like the way I was. I like the me without fashioable clothes, make-up, brand things, but only with a pure and simple heart. It doesn't mean I will not care about my outside looks; it just means that inside of a person is more important than outside.

This year, I have a lot of dreams, plans, and hopes; to be a good person is one of them too. Do my best.