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今何か久しぶりの気持ちがあります；

すごい。DANCEがマジすごい～！

It is ...

Sometimes, life is palying game with you.

When u are missing someone, someone is always busy...

miss u even u are far from me with a busy life...

ganbate ne. 

Dreams

I dreamed about you agian last night.

You come to my dreams almost every night.

In my last night dream, I called your name loudly many times, You smiled and ran to me.

Every dream has you is a life that I don't want to get up.

Every morning got up from the dream of you is a pian.

I wish I could think less about you, 
but I couldn't...

Thoughts on the way

----While driving on the highway, an ambulance pass by from another side of road with emergency lights and sound on. “a...another life is passing away. The person might be diying in the ambulance. People say if you had death experience, and lucky you didn't die, you will be re-new agian. Sometimes, I wish for that kind of re-new, but also afraid of it.”

----Every time, when I went to 6th floor of library, I would watch the I-95 highway from the window. “So many cars always, never stopped. It make this boring city looks alive. Everyone seems has a place to go to, a things to do. But, why I feel so empty. Where am I going to? Can I get the final place? I know that BPT is not the final place for me. I am now like a person walk on highway, everyone can be faster than me, but I am walk step by step. Little by little close to my final place. When sushi chef said he doesn't know why he works so hard and make moeny for, he asked me if I know why I work hard and make money for; I just smiled, didn't answer. But I was saying to myself that:“yes. I know. I have a dream to make come ture.”

----Those days, everytime when I feel depressed or lose hopes, I tell myself that 私は夢がある、頑張ります。

SMILE

Got cold....not bad cold, but I lost my voice, I can't speak out loud...I was thinking if I should went to work yesterday, but I need money ne. And, it is not good for the boss to lose one waiteress on Sat. Night. I couldn't go take the order, but I could help with other things.

Then, I found out why SMILE is important~!! When you lost your voice, then only way to show your friendly to others is SMILE. I couldn't talk to customes, but they all say "thank you" after I took out the dishes, add drinks or gave food. I only can give them a big friendly smile. It made me think why smile is important for others. Un...no one want to see a unhappy face, and smile can transfer to others. So, happy people will have more friends and others~~!!

white birthday

Birthday past yesterday.

It was heavy snow, so quite outside, and I watched a dog play in the snow from my window. The dog looked so happy.

I didn't tell anyone it was my brithday yesterday. But still few friends remembered, thank you guys.

A year by year, I always had good wishes for new age, but I always lose what I was looking for. So, I lost my passion for brithday...chotto samishii brithday ne...

I miss u...
...much.

EMPTY

empty

inside out

Good luck, Good love

The new friend who I made in Wasabi resturant, is leaving because of his wife. His name is D. D is just one year older than me, but married with a woman who is older than him 10 years. They have been married for 4 years now and have a son.

D really love and care about his wife, that's why he married when he was 23 because his wife's age can't wait for too long. Now, their marriage is in trouble. D doesn't know what is the best way to solve the problem, he is too in love with his wife to lose her.

D choose to change job, so he can be with his wife more. Maybe his wife will become not that anger to him.

Love is not easy. It's easy to love someone, it's hard to keep the love forever. That's why we have to always remind ourselves how much we love the one we chose, and how much he/she loves us too.

French woman says:" Make more love, make less fight."

I try my best to keep best love. If I made you unhappy sometimes because my love. I am sorry, but please forgive me because I love you.

Good luck everyone, and have a good love.

Beliving and Unknowing

To know many things is not a good thing..,some times...

So I choose to not knowing...

Between person and person hardest thing is beliving in each other...

But I choose to beliving...

I am not stupid,
I am just believe that there are people who have same thinking with me.

I don't hide things, so you can know my everything.
I don't lie anymore, so you can believe in me.

I believe you are same with me.
Because you know what is right, what is wrong.

Aren't you?

Cry Alone

Bobby came to my office

He asked me:" What happen to that girl? She was crying when I walked in."

The girl who sit outside of my office is the new GE.
I heard crying sounds sometimes, but I didn't think about it.

She was crying...

How many girls had cried alone aound my friends?
At least, I am sure there are 3 or 4 of us.

Life is hard, is lonely, is cold.
That's why we cry.

But, don't waste the tears,
Make each tears shine like late night star.

Ganbate ne...
Someone will save your tears one day.

So, just Ganbate ne.

翼の折れた天使たち～Ｂ

人の生きる道に教科書などない。自分で決斷したなら、その道は正しいと思う。でも、大事なのは、引き返す行勇気を持つこと。人は、何度でも、やり直すことができるのだから。

沒有教我們如何生活的教科書，只要是自己決定的，這條道路一定是正確的。但是重要的是要有回頭的勇氣，人生無論幾次都可以重新來過。

Another Half Empty Bed

When pana jumped out from my hug,

I saw another half empty bed.

You are not there,

I fill in my tears into the place which belongs to you.

Warm it up by memories of you.

Missing you comes quickly like summer stome,

Rain fall in my heart, without you.

「逢いたい」that's what I want to tell you.

今、明日、次の朝、次の昼、君が逢いたい。

What's Wrong with this World

Children killing children,
Love ones cheating love ones,
Adult doesn't get marry,
doesn't want children,Y
oung people don't want take care of parents,
Youth has no respect to others,
Man wants money,
power and sex only,
Woman wants money,
vanity and sex only,
People don't care about others,
but want to judge others,
Cheating and laying are popluar ways of success and self-protect,
Nice people die because of durgs and AIDS,
Poor people die because of durgs and AIDS too..
At least, death is fair for everyone.
Everyone dies.
Important is how you chose to live.
It is hard to change this world,
but easy to change yourself to fit with this world.
However,
who said you have to change to fit with this world?
Don't lose your soul becuase that's what the world is.
YOU CAN STILL BE YOU.
Be a person who has love, pure, peace and SOUL.
Do the right thing,
Be the right person.
Some people might laugh at us and call us foolish,
But we live not for others to judge.
Be the right person never matter what's wrong with this world.

三月も頑張って～

It is March already. Time past faster than I thought. February was busy month, but I could be more busy is fine too.
February's topics of the month were:

QUIT TO THINK ABOUT SMOKING. (Which I did it~!!!!)
STUDY AS MUCH AS I CAN (Which I found out it was not that easy..., i couldnt see any improvement...)
OVER COME MY DEPRESSIONS (Which I did for sometimes, and sometimes I couldn't...)


From March! I will keep doing those three topics and try to do better. Also, I will add another topic:
ONLY USE $200 A MONTH~~~!!!
(....it always hard when it comes with the money...: cell phone, gas & car , food, and I plan to go get hair-cut in NY....ma....maybe I should change to $250...OK!! NO MORE THAN 250 AND ONLY FOR MARCH.)

UN....try my best.
and the last topic of timeless:KEEP BEING A BETTER PERSON, AND LOVING YOU.be ready~!