A day of not so good mood

It's my emotional wave down time now. I know myself well enough to find out easily. 

So even I didn't do much and had a body massage, I still felt very tired.

I was very hungry by the time of 3 p.m. But has no power or desire to cook anything.

As I always do, I went out for food.

Four people sat behind me might be the freshman of Yale. 2 young boys and 2 young girls. Their conversation was boring as hell, and one of the girl was keep showing off herself. Yeah, yeah, yeah, so we all know you got in Yale and paid $1000 just for the application stuff, and we all know you have a great dad, also we all know you are spoiled, ok? So stop talking.  

Summer is all most gone. I hate winter. 

Winter is my dark season. Hope I won't kill myself like last winter.  

My dearest Grandpa: Happy 85th B-DAY~~!!!

It is my dearest grandpa's b-day today. August 23rd, 85 years old now~~!!!!! 

I love my grandpa a lot, he is one of the most wonderful person in this world. He means so much to me. I grew up with my grandparents ( I love my grandma as much as I love my grandpa). My parents were really busy at their work and no time for their only daughter  ( no complain about that ). I stayed with my grandparents during summer breaks, sleep besides my grandma, go shopping with my grandma, help with cooking or wash dishes, watching TV with them.... so many wonderful memories. 

My grandma is a small lady who has a big strong heart. She is very kind to me, always read bedtime stories to me, and cook wonderful food. My grandpa is a gentleman with kind and warm heart. He always let my grandma won the fight, and tells me "let your grandma control everything." He always smiles with love, tell stories about my grand-grandfather and his youth life, he also can drew beautiful Chinese water painting. I was socked how good he could draw while I was going the after school drawing class. He smiled and said:" Your grand-grandpa was an artist~! Pretty famous around our home city."

I have been in US 10 years now. I missed 10 b-days for each of my parents and grandparents. That is something that never could be recovered in my heart. I love them with all my heart. It's just sad to see they grow older and older by the pictures from home.

" Your grandma and me will live until 100~! Live until your parents and uncles all retried from their work. Hahahaha...." on the another side of phone, my grandpa laughed so loud while telling me his future plans. That's one of the reason that I love him so much. He always makes me happy. 

Happy 85th b-day~!!!! My dearest grandpa. I will always be your dearest grandchild, love you with all my heart and all my soul. 

10 years anniversary

8.16.1998. I left China with 2 huge suitcases (one of them was over weight), took a 14 hours flight, landed at LA, USA. The sun was so shining, airport was full of people mixed with the smell of coffee and cold air from the air-conditioner. Everything was so fun, so new, so scared, and so unexpected. My heart was jumping crazy with excitement, but mixed with fears. Never past single English exam back in China, and no idea what is TOFEL,  I started my life in USA.

10 YEARS PAST.

I can't even put my feelings into the words now.... 10 years.... I can't even judge my life for everything that happened is this 10 years. The things I lost, and the thing I gained. I wonder if this 10 years were worth for my life or not. Could my life be better if I stayed in China? Could I become a better, wiser person if I stayed in China? Could I never got hurts that much if I stayed in China? All those questions can not be answered now. Maybe I need 10 more years to find out that.

I am not a smart person. I learned things from pains, lost, disappoints and mistakes. This 10 year is very meaningful for me. It is the 10 year which I transform from my youth to adulthood. What I am about to become were all depended on the past 10 years.

Wooo.....I still don't believe this.... 10 years.... for some people to look at my life, they might think I am a loser ( and I know some people really want see me fail and call me a loser ), but whatever they judge me, my judgement is in my heart, not their eyes. 

Hopefully, I will be much wiser in the next 10 years. No matter where I will be, and who I will be with. 

Michael Phelps, ROCKS.

I am watching the summer olympic games every night, and the most exciting game is swiming~! Oh my god, Michael Phelps is amzing~~!! He won everything so far. I think I should cheer for the Chinese team since I am Chinese, but I can't keep away cheering for Michael Phelps. He is the one who make history~!! I want to see he win because I want to see someone can break all the limits. Just like the Visa CM says:" When they success, you success." Because after all, Michael Phelps is still a human, his winning is the winning of humanity.

Plus, he is a sexy guy who is not all over himself. Some people might show off a lot because of their success, but Michael Phelps just very low key, like it's nothing to be showing off about. I like that part of him.

Olympic is going great~~~!! Love the games~~!!

Summer of Fire

I thought I won't be able to watch the firework of this summer again. 

When I lived in BPT, I could watch the July 4th firework very easily. My house is just 5 minutes walk from the seaside park, and they host the firework at there every summer. It was hard to miss it. But since I moved out from BPT last summer, it became hard to watching the fireworks. I have been working very hard since that time, it's been hard for me to find free time just for the firework. So I give up watch it as the many things I have given up from last year.

But, who knows~!!!  

I still got the chance to have a surprising-firework-watch. It was a great surprise which God gave to me. Maybe he was trying to tell me that life is full of surprise, so do cheer up. 

Never ask too much. That's my new rule for life.