２００７年１１月１６日 不明

難道成年人都是這個樣子的嗎？

要生活在這個世界上，

就是這個樣子的嗎？

要和不喜歡的人去説話，

吃飯，

要看別人臉色的活下去，

要處處都小心，

我覺得長大真的很累人．

現在的生活中，

沒有一點什麽叫做幸福．

Busy days~!!!

矢張り～～～Busy lifeは一番いいね。

I have been busy since last monday.

1:
Taiwanese summer education students are coming...
I had to make sure they arrive in school on time...
No one left behind in the airport....
Everyone get the dorm room which they wanna...
My phone was so busy because of them....(they needed help)
(kind of feel good timing lost job in wasabi.)

2:
Looking for a new job...
Went to Hayama with my friend: Jing 
Jing is a mother of 9 years old, but she act very young~~
Jing was helping me to find another job.
Oh, she knows tadami-san~~~! 
They used to work together in ichoro~~!
Then, she found a try-out for me in ichiro,
I am gonna go there tomorrow~~~!!!

3:
Moving out....
I am sick tired of living beside all those men
who don't care about others.
They are middle-ages, 
"DON'T JUST WEAR UNDERWEAR 
WHEN YOU COME OUT FORM YOU ROOM~
"DON'T ASK ME TOO MANY PERSONAL QUESTIONS"
and....
"2"is moving in...
(you remember 2? the taiwanese girl who was with bon)

A....I just want to live in peace
that's why I decided to move to Jing's old room
A single room with kitchen and bateroom in west haven.
Well....it is kind of far from UB,
but the room only cost $375 (I have to pay internet)
and one Asian Markt is just beside the room.
So easy to live.
Close to everwhere:
Walmart, stop&shop, Target, Mildfrod Mall....
T.G.I Friday, Subway, Dunkin',Starbucks.....
and
the owner is very nice.

I just moved most of my things to there with Jing last night.
Gonna move some more today and tomorrow.

I am taking my life seriouly now.
No more playing around.
Seriouly at job, part time job, life, friend and love.

Hi~~
What doesn't kills you, makes you stronger.

A way of Living

Wasabi, the resturant which I have part time work,
is at a very busy main street. 
So many cars on the road, and so many shops on the side.

I can see a man who is holding a sign on the side of street.
No matter sunny or snowing,
he is always there, holding his sign.

That is his job,
That is what he does for living.

Everytime when I look at him, I feel that my life is good.

But, don't say that man is so poor
or he must be unhappy about his life.

No one has the rights to judge others' life.

When my old friend asked me
"are you doing good those years?"
I asked him
"What is the definition of the good?"
He said
"yeah...I wanna know too."

Don't change your way of life 
because what most people think the life should be
or most people think what GOOD, SUSSCE or HAPPY is.

Don't judge others' life by what they are doing;
how much money they have;
how many love they get;
how good they look...

Are you happy or not,
Only you know.

Don't live a life which is others' dream.

Live in your own dream.
Go your way, Life is only once.

三月も頑張って～

It is March already. Time past faster than I thought. February was busy month, but I could be more busy is fine too.
February's topics of the month were:

QUIT TO THINK ABOUT SMOKING. (Which I did it~!!!!)
STUDY AS MUCH AS I CAN (Which I found out it was not that easy..., i couldnt see any improvement...)
OVER COME MY DEPRESSIONS (Which I did for sometimes, and sometimes I couldn't...)


From March! I will keep doing those three topics and try to do better. Also, I will add another topic:
ONLY USE $200 A MONTH~~~!!!
(....it always hard when it comes with the money...: cell phone, gas & car , food, and I plan to go get hair-cut in NY....ma....maybe I should change to $250...OK!! NO MORE THAN 250 AND ONLY FOR MARCH.)

UN....try my best.
and the last topic of timeless:KEEP BEING A BETTER PERSON, AND LOVING YOU.be ready~!

The Road Under Our Feet

Everytime, when I walk pass infront of student center, I always look at the sewer which in the middle of the road. I always think what if I drop my key inside of it, what should I do.
I have contorlled my desire of smoking after Masa left. It is the time for myself to recover the mistakes which I had made in my life. I want to be a better person.

Many times, I felt scare and worry about future. But, I don't cry much no more. I understand that crying aren't do anything for me. I save my tears for the happinese moments which will come later. Once, I gave out much and got nothing back; I scared to give after that time. But, I am ready to do it agian; to forget about past hurts and give all my love out to you. Someone said:" Don't be afriad of get hurts agian." Look what have I done, afriad of giving love and end up with hurting others and self.

The fortune-telling said you may feel depressed and undeserving of love, and difficult to be yourself and do what you must, to maintain your relationships and get much-needed emotional support and reinforcement from your loved ones at middle of this summer. I know that you don't believe those things, but still i want to tell you that "go do what you want to, make your own dream come true, don't worry about me. I will always be here for you. If you need to be alone, I won't talk; if you need to be hugged, I will smile."

Future is turtly unknown and scared, but giving up is more scare for me now. I be who I believe is right; you be just the way you are. One step by step , everthing will be alright.