Everytime, when I walk pass infront of student center, I always look at the sewer which in the middle of the road. I always think what if I drop my key inside of it, what should I do.
I have contorlled my desire of smoking after Masa left. It is the time for myself to recover the mistakes which I had made in my life. I want to be a better person.
Many times, I felt scare and worry about future. But, I don't cry much no more. I understand that crying aren't do anything for me. I save my tears for the happinese moments which will come later. Once, I gave out much and got nothing back; I scared to give after that time. But, I am ready to do it agian; to forget about past hurts and give all my love out to you. Someone said:" Don't be afriad of get hurts agian." Look what have I done, afriad of giving love and end up with hurting others and self.
The fortune-telling said you may feel depressed and undeserving of love, and difficult to be yourself and do what you must, to maintain your relationships and get much-needed emotional support and reinforcement from your loved ones at middle of this summer. I know that you don't believe those things, but still i want to tell you that "go do what you want to, make your own dream come true, don't worry about me. I will always be here for you. If you need to be alone, I won't talk; if you need to be hugged, I will smile."
Future is turtly unknown and scared, but giving up is more scare for me now. I be who I believe is right; you be just the way you are. One step by step , everthing will be alright.
但是，這種簡單的幽默，我好想擁有。自己一直都想要來一次ROAD TRIP，很想和一，兩個好朋友一起，開車橫穿美國。在每一個城市，每一個高速路，都照相留戀。可是，時間不允許，資金不允許，這樣的朋友也沒有。所以這成了我這兩年來的一個未完成的夢想。如果有一天，有了錢，有了時間，有了那個志同道合的人，想要完成這個夢想。如果有那麽一天，有了更多的錢，更多的時間，和願意一生相隨的人，想要一起周遊世界。