The Road Under Our Feet

Everytime, when I walk pass infront of student center, I always look at the sewer which in the middle of the road. I always think what if I drop my key inside of it, what should I do.
I have contorlled my desire of smoking after Masa left. It is the time for myself to recover the mistakes which I had made in my life. I want to be a better person.

Many times, I felt scare and worry about future. But, I don't cry much no more. I understand that crying aren't do anything for me. I save my tears for the happinese moments which will come later. Once, I gave out much and got nothing back; I scared to give after that time. But, I am ready to do it agian; to forget about past hurts and give all my love out to you. Someone said:" Don't be afriad of get hurts agian." Look what have I done, afriad of giving love and end up with hurting others and self.

The fortune-telling said you may feel depressed and undeserving of love, and difficult to be yourself and do what you must, to maintain your relationships and get much-needed emotional support and reinforcement from your loved ones at middle of this summer. I know that you don't believe those things, but still i want to tell you that "go do what you want to, make your own dream come true, don't worry about me. I will always be here for you. If you need to be alone, I won't talk; if you need to be hugged, I will smile."

Future is turtly unknown and scared, but giving up is more scare for me now. I be who I believe is right; you be just the way you are. One step by step , everthing will be alright.

翼の折れた天使たち」～A

人は目に映る分かりやすいモノを信じてします。それが、価値あるモノかも確かめずに…でも、本当に大切なものは身近にある。空気のように見えないけれど、そこにある。

人們會相信眼睛看到的，容易理解的東西，也不確認那是否有價值。但是，真正重要的東西就在身邊，像空氣一樣看不見，但確實存在。

I always scared when you left me alone 'cause I so afraid of losing you. But I didn't know you are always besides me and by my side even your body is miles away from me. You are not gone.

The things that money could buy are not priceless and valuable, the priceless things are not easy to be seem and to be find. Once if you get it, don't let it go. That is what I says to myself every day now.

You are my priceless treasure。

一人で

It's not lonely when I just be with myself.But, it is lonely when I think about you.
I dreamed about you last night. Is that because I missed you before I sleep?

It is always hard to get out of the dream, and find out everything is dream.

I don't want to dreaming about you. I don't want to know you are not beside me. I am into my own fight, wish to dream about you before I sleep and wish I didn't dream about you after I got up.

I am not lonely just by myself. But when every small things remind me about you, I feel lonley as coldest winter.

Just by myself is not a scared thing, the scared thing is once you know the feelings of be with someone you love, and lose it.

I MISS U.

LIVE LOVE LEARN

LIVE, LOVE, LEARN. I saw this three words in Ms. Kim Davis's homepage. What a right order. Live frist, Love someone, Learn something from it. My life at this point is the learning point. I lived without dream, and loved with my whole heart; but I didn't learn. Now, it is learning time. I finally understand what I had created is what I got now.

I use to think my luck is not good. Everyone ealse has better life than me, easier and happier life than me. They all got what I want to have, I envy them. Now I think my luck is not none, I had many. Many chances to have what I want, but I let them go. I lost my own luck by my own hands.

Thank you for loving me; loving a person as me; really thank you.

Somking Winter Ash

Those days, I felt so hard sometimes. I know that I am a weak person, and always want to be with someone. But I also know that I should become stronger and better. I am looking for a way to reduce my stress. I pormised Masa to not somking, and I want to keep my pormise.
If I somke by myself, no one will know. Masa won't know either, but I feel it is one kind of cheating. I don't want lie to Masa about anything. And I want to prove to myself that I am a good person and can be strong.

I found out how music has great power now. I love R&B/SOUL now, I love the songs which touch my heart, and I feel my soul is gone with the music, across ocean and go into to another soul.

Winter is finally here, cold air touchs my naked face. Lips' skin is coming off because of too dry, kind of hurts. No snow's winter is colder than ever. Maybe it is because you are not here. I warm myself up with believe and love in you.

Future will come, hope dreams will come ture too.