2007年10月24日 晴天

一口氣，看完了《嫌われ松子の一生》。

哦，我知道這部日劇想要告訴人們不論怎樣都不要放棄人生。

但是哦。。。。

我邊看邊在想，松子~！！！你這個笨女人~~~！！！

愛情是不可信的，男人也一樣~~~！！！！

哦哦哦。。。。看得我真為她的執著而傷心~

happy birthday

Happy Birthday

to the one who I love deeply.

2007年10月04日 晴天

在紐約找到的百雀羚。老字號的護膚品，讓我想起了爸爸。

我爸爸是我見過（除了日本男人以外）最講究生活品質的人了，很小的時候，就常見爸爸在洗了臉后，拿起百雀羚塗抹在臉上。

超級香噴噴的~~！！

就在前幾年，爸爸他還說新的護膚品不如老字號的好，讓我多用用老字號的百雀羚。

恩，我發現自己真的很喜歡像爸爸那樣的男人。

難道我有戀父情結？？

2007年9月18日 晴天

最近很想傢，可能是孤單的原因，也可能是發現，不論你愛誰愛到死，最終不會離棄你的，只有你的家人而已。很喜歡上面那張照片，我們一家，笑得那麽的幸福。希望我們能早一點團聚，能再一次有這樣幸福的笑容。

2007年9月15日 晴天

我傢的愛貓，

馬上就要是我們相依爲命三周年了~~~~！！！

那天，我要帶她去照相~~~！！！

2007年8月24日 晴天

昨天（美國的今天），８月２３日，是我最最最愛爺爺的生日。

早上７天過，我就破天荒地起來，給爺爺打電話，祝爺爺生日快樂。
電話那邊的爺爺，聽力已經明顯不如以前好了。。。。好想他，真的好想他。

我覺得我可以失去無數個愛我的男人，受無數次的傷害，都無所謂。
但我不敢想象如果爺爺離開我。。。。我會死掉吧。。。
可是，我卻知道爺爺不可能永遠在我身邊。。。

愛，就是痛苦。
忽然想到看過的一部日劇，關於死神的。
那個在監獄中的死神說因爲有心，所以痛苦。
上天，讓爺爺好好快快樂樂的長命百歲吧。
讓我早日再能回到爺爺身邊。
爺爺，生日快樂。
福如東海，壽比南山。

愛你的孫女

無題

【愛是勇氣。勇敢地放棄自己慾望的結果，說不定能得到更大的自由。】

Love is courage. 
Give up the desire bravely, 
you may have more freedom.

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Changing is hard.
Not changing is a dead end.

On the edge of line,
jump or not jump is just matter of time.

LOVE YOU

I was reading my old website...
Found out I use to be a girl who is open about my love.
But after got hurt one time.....
I don't show my love feelings anymore.
Maybe I am scared....afraid of get hurts agian.

BUT NOW.
I want to say something 
which I never said on the website.

I LOVE YOU~! MASA~!!

I don't hide my feelings from others no more,
even if one day I might lose you,
I still wanna the whole world to know
that I LOVE YOU and ONLY LOVE YOU.

I wanna be me. 
Be myself.
To be true to myself.

I Miss You

DEAR M;

I MISS YOU MUCH.

LOVE,

S

（無題）

"Don't make me worry ne."


Could not come out from my mouth.

The highest level of love is the one 
which can be tested by the ordinary years of passing. 


愛的最高境界是經得起平淡的流年。

Balance Check

It's hard to keep a good balance in life.

Many things need a good balance:

1. Money:
--how much is enough?
--how much should I spend a month?
--what is the line of cheeseparing and frugality？
--what is the line of dissipate and use on the right things?

2. Work
--how much is work too much?
--how hard is work too hard?

3. Food
--how to eat to be health?
--how much drinks are too much?
--how many food is too little?

4. Health
--how often should we work-out?
--how often should we take break from life?

5. Love
--how much is giving too much?
--how little is not giving enough?
--how deep is too deep of love?
--how selfish is too selfish becuase of love?


I always not good at keep good balance....
Sometimes too much, sometimes not enough...

It's hard to keep balance
I am trying to not do too much to you
I am afraid it will be too much for you
sometimes I think it is not fair,
but
I don't want to be a selfish person.






even love is selfish.

Good luck, Good love

The new friend who I made in Wasabi resturant, is leaving because of his wife. His name is D. D is just one year older than me, but married with a woman who is older than him 10 years. They have been married for 4 years now and have a son.

D really love and care about his wife, that's why he married when he was 23 because his wife's age can't wait for too long. Now, their marriage is in trouble. D doesn't know what is the best way to solve the problem, he is too in love with his wife to lose her.

D choose to change job, so he can be with his wife more. Maybe his wife will become not that anger to him.

Love is not easy. It's easy to love someone, it's hard to keep the love forever. That's why we have to always remind ourselves how much we love the one we chose, and how much he/she loves us too.

French woman says:" Make more love, make less fight."

I try my best to keep best love. If I made you unhappy sometimes because my love. I am sorry, but please forgive me because I love you.

Good luck everyone, and have a good love.

LIVE LOVE LEARN

LIVE, LOVE, LEARN. I saw this three words in Ms. Kim Davis's homepage. What a right order. Live frist, Love someone, Learn something from it. My life at this point is the learning point. I lived without dream, and loved with my whole heart; but I didn't learn. Now, it is learning time. I finally understand what I had created is what I got now.

I use to think my luck is not good. Everyone ealse has better life than me, easier and happier life than me. They all got what I want to have, I envy them. Now I think my luck is not none, I had many. Many chances to have what I want, but I let them go. I lost my own luck by my own hands.

Thank you for loving me; loving a person as me; really thank you.

Life is not a easy love song

"When you were missing her, you couldn't tell her;

When you were thinking her, you couldn't see her;

When you were looking at her, you couldn't hug her;

When you were crying for her, you couldn't feel her;

When you were loving her, you couldn't kiss her....S

he didn't know what have her done until she feels what you felt."

I have been trying to fine a job and study for a week now. It's really hard...once agian, I believe that I was sopiled badly and thought this world is too easy. Haven't cry because of without you for long time, and haven't cry because of one song. やはり私は何を知らないです。ずっと利己的でした。Ha....more think about before more I felt bad about myself . Honto dane...human won't care about things/people which they have now, only once they feel they will lose the things/people. Honto...learned life from a hard way ne....

"頑張っれ." You said to her.

気持ちは何ですか？信じるいいですか？信じて。私は君が信じる。君も私に信じてください。

私は頑張リます。

~~ONE LOVE~~!!!