A day of not so good mood

It's my emotional wave down time now. I know myself well enough to find out easily. 

So even I didn't do much and had a body massage, I still felt very tired.

I was very hungry by the time of 3 p.m. But has no power or desire to cook anything.

As I always do, I went out for food.

Four people sat behind me might be the freshman of Yale. 2 young boys and 2 young girls. Their conversation was boring as hell, and one of the girl was keep showing off herself. Yeah, yeah, yeah, so we all know you got in Yale and paid $1000 just for the application stuff, and we all know you have a great dad, also we all know you are spoiled, ok? So stop talking.  

Summer is all most gone. I hate winter. 

Winter is my dark season. Hope I won't kill myself like last winter.  

Somking Winter Ash

Those days, I felt so hard sometimes. I know that I am a weak person, and always want to be with someone. But I also know that I should become stronger and better. I am looking for a way to reduce my stress. I pormised Masa to not somking, and I want to keep my pormise.
If I somke by myself, no one will know. Masa won't know either, but I feel it is one kind of cheating. I don't want lie to Masa about anything. And I want to prove to myself that I am a good person and can be strong.

I found out how music has great power now. I love R&B/SOUL now, I love the songs which touch my heart, and I feel my soul is gone with the music, across ocean and go into to another soul.

Winter is finally here, cold air touchs my naked face. Lips' skin is coming off because of too dry, kind of hurts. No snow's winter is colder than ever. Maybe it is because you are not here. I warm myself up with believe and love in you.

Future will come, hope dreams will come ture too.