Raining Day

Another raining day today.

This year's spring is coming late,
Yeah,
We had soft warm winter.

Kind of fit with my life,
I had soft and warm winter with you,
Cold spring with myself.
I guess this summer won't be hot either.

My dream of last night was so much going on,
so many people appeared in my dream,
Ones that I love, ones that I hate.

I didn't want to get up in the morning
'cause you were talking and smiling to me
so I stayed more
wish to see you agian.

While thinking about my unsuccessful life,
and upseting about myself,
I remember a old song:

THE MEANING OF SUCCESS IS DEFEATED YOURSELF.

still,
I won't give up.

Balance Check

It's hard to keep a good balance in life.

Many things need a good balance:

1. Money:
--how much is enough?
--how much should I spend a month?
--what is the line of cheeseparing and frugality？
--what is the line of dissipate and use on the right things?

2. Work
--how much is work too much?
--how hard is work too hard?

3. Food
--how to eat to be health?
--how much drinks are too much?
--how many food is too little?

4. Health
--how often should we work-out?
--how often should we take break from life?

5. Love
--how much is giving too much?
--how little is not giving enough?
--how deep is too deep of love?
--how selfish is too selfish becuase of love?


I always not good at keep good balance....
Sometimes too much, sometimes not enough...

It's hard to keep balance
I am trying to not do too much to you
I am afraid it will be too much for you
sometimes I think it is not fair,
but
I don't want to be a selfish person.






even love is selfish.

Wine

OHHHHHHH

I tried some wine last night. Really just a little bit.

I was in my room and tried to be relax.

Watching TV show, having diner and little bit wine.

OHHHHHHH

The wine which I bought is not that dry, but not sweet either,
I was wishing for sweeter.

BUT

SUGOI~!! I became so warm after drunk the wine, and face & body were pink~! And, sleepy, and, felt soft. It was not bad feeling, I think if I drink more, everything will goes wrong. (You won't believe how little did I drink....)

I decided to go sleep even it was only 10 p.m.
HOWEVER~~~!!!
I couldn't....I was sleepy and wanted to sleep, but couldn't .....

So I was just watching TV on bed until maybe 3 a.m......

Is that what happen? If you drink wine or sake, you won't be able to sleep later ? Or just I couldn't sleep.....

Remembered

I forget

there is a life of yours

which I will never belong to

a life of yours

which you will never put me into

I forget

Our story is only in over sea

not in where you are now

Just remembered.

a place in you keep me as unknown









God. Please don't make me lose agian.

WASABI --FIGHT !

Boss' wife got mad last Friday... She had a fight with one sushi chef...

I didn't know that there was a long time problem between her and the sushi chef. After they had fight, she complained to me about the sushi chef, and the sushi chef complained to me about her too....I couldn't go home soon after work 'cause she asked me to go for a drink with her. I know that she has no one to talk to in her daily life, that she wanted to tell someone her inside problems....We spend 2 hours in T.G.I Friday....I got home almost 3 a.m.......(at that point, I understand why sometimes man can't go home soon after work).

Then, one waiter quit job the next day because the fight....he liked the sushi chef that was his way to support sushi chef, but I don't think he did the right thing...he is 25 years old, but acting like 18 years old. Without one waiter, boss asked me to work two more afternoons....good for me? I guess on the money part it is good, but I can't slow my plans for future too. Still, I will go work for this week because I can not not help them when they needed. It's just not right....(I hope they can find another waiter soon)

There is one thing which I don't like about working there...is the sushi chef (the one who had fight with the boss' wife). He is nice, but he always tried to take something from me...like he'd hold my shoulder, put his head close to my shoulder, try to hug me...I really HATE it....lucky the waiter quit 'cause he was doing same thing too. Tried to touch my hand or touch my face....I HATE THOSE PEOPLE. NO RESPECT...but the sushi chef is the boss' friend....I was happy to know that he won't work there no more after June. 2 more months...

Well....that's how things goes at the resturant. I know I won't work there forever, now it is just the time of perpare for the future.