I think I am driving myself crazy again. I can't stop the worrying in my heard. Its seems like the only time that I could stop being worry is the time I fall in sleep. I start to wonder if there is anything wrong with me mentally now. I tried to find an answer of my action, and the only reason that I could think about is I might afraid of being happy. So I keep beat up myself. I mean that my life isn't great yet or anywhere close to what I really want. But it's better than last 2 years. Everything is getting better. I got a new car, new boyfriend, lost the weight which I wanted to lose, grow my hair long to what I wanted it to be, manged my money better and wiser than before. Everything is getting better, and I am happy with it and truly appreciated. Why am I feel this? Why? Why I am worried so much?
While I was coming to work this morning, I was thinking that how happy that I use to be, how worry free that I use to be. I guess I always worried about things but I don't remember that I have been worry as much as I am now. It's like I think something will go wrong because everything has been great, and that's not normal.
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