12-16-09 Sunny

I can't do this job forever. I don't like this nail job and feel shamed to say I am working in a nail salon. The eduction told us that there isn't class difference between human being. That is a lie. There is. I don't like the feeling of doing this, and it makes me feel that I am a stupid, useless person who can't do anything require a brain but this. I know I am now. I don't have the chance and the key which normal American people have. I know I have to be patient, I have to be clam and control my urge to do crazy thing or make bad decision. There are a lot of short-cuts to reach one's goal, but I believe in right moral and hard working, also karma. I don't want to be a cold heart person who only think myself. I need future, need money, need my dream to be come true. But I will take my time, follow my heart, follow my moral. Short-cut may bring the dreams or whatever I want faster, but I believe it won't be strong or lasing enough for long-term. I am not only look at now, look at a month or a year. I think far. Someone might say "Live today, die tomorrow," which I do agree somehow, but I won't take that as live just now, and don't care the consequences which will come after the time passes. I believe in myself, believe in my parents' eduction. I am better than that. I am my father's child. I should know what is right or wrong. It's all about long term, not what is in front or a short term. I take my life seriously. I am not take any more chances.