Wishes of Valentines' Day

Today is Valentines'day in Japan already. I have a wish of love: to be with you until the end of our days. When we all become old, all our children have own family, I will sit beside you and listen to you talk about stories when we were young.No matter we will be rich or not,to have you in my life is richest thing in the world.When we all become old,I will still hold your hands,take care of you when you are sick,walk though hard time and always beside you.Even we will fight about small things,but that is one kind of happinese.No matter I will eat good or wear good or not,I will cook simple food with love,wear simple colthes with warmnese.My wish of LOVE:With you and only with you until the end of our days.HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY to you across of the ocean.

TOEIC

I went to take TOEIC at 10th in Newton, MA. It was a very tired day. I had to take bus at 7 a.m. to be able to make the test at 1 p.m. Then after the test, I waitted 2 hours for the returning bus at 6 p.m. Finally came back home after 10:30. It was a day of hunger and cold.

TOEIC test is actually not hard. It much easiler than TOFEL or any kind of English test for enter university. If you took any of those test, you won't find TOEIC is hard. But, it doesn't mean TOEIC was so easy for me.

TOEIC only has two parts: listening and reading. For each of them, there are 100 questions. Listening part has 4 different test:

look at picture and listen to the voice, choose the best answer (very easy, but be careful with the british way of talking). two people talking, choose the best answer (just one question per talking, easy). two people talking, choose the best answer (three questions per talking, harder than before but still kind of easy). One long talking about something, choose the best answer. (three questions per talking. Talking will only paly for one time, so you have to remember the talking to be able to asnwer questions. hardest one in all of 4, but not too hard).For listening text, my thinking is while you are taking the text, don't think too much, choose the best answer come up to your mind first. If you start to think, you will miss the next question. The best way to make the listening skill higher will be always listen to TV, RADIO or MOIVE without look at it.The reading test....actually it is not that hard either, but you have to control your time well~!!I couldn't control my time well...so I think I lost a lot of pionts at the end of 20 questions since I didn't have time to do them. So the reading speed is very important~!!There are 3 type test for reading:Choose the best word and put in the sentence. (not hard. just choose the best one which you feel is right. )Choose the wrong wrod from sentence. (there will be four worng ones which has underline. Same as last one, just choose the best one which you feel is right. not hard.)Reading one/two short information, and answer the questions. (Two to five questions per one reading. I think it was around 10 readings, so you have to control your time well~~!! The readings are not hard to understand, all of them are just informations, such as: about meeting, about phone bill, about new store opening...It not so hard, but if your reading speed is slow...like me...you will lose time~~!!)My advice for get higher reading skill is: the best way to do it is read all the letters you got from any kind of companies, if you live outside of english speaking country, the best way is go to internet and read news. All kind of news. And try to read and understand the news as fast as you can.)Another thing is the TOEIC is not a computer test ...it just a normal test. I think it makes harder to control the time. If you will go take it, I think you won't find it's so hard. Just do your best and control the time well~~!! Then you can do it~!!!

The Road Under Our Feet

Everytime, when I walk pass infront of student center, I always look at the sewer which in the middle of the road. I always think what if I drop my key inside of it, what should I do.
I have contorlled my desire of smoking after Masa left. It is the time for myself to recover the mistakes which I had made in my life. I want to be a better person.

Many times, I felt scare and worry about future. But, I don't cry much no more. I understand that crying aren't do anything for me. I save my tears for the happinese moments which will come later. Once, I gave out much and got nothing back; I scared to give after that time. But, I am ready to do it agian; to forget about past hurts and give all my love out to you. Someone said:" Don't be afriad of get hurts agian." Look what have I done, afriad of giving love and end up with hurting others and self.

The fortune-telling said you may feel depressed and undeserving of love, and difficult to be yourself and do what you must, to maintain your relationships and get much-needed emotional support and reinforcement from your loved ones at middle of this summer. I know that you don't believe those things, but still i want to tell you that "go do what you want to, make your own dream come true, don't worry about me. I will always be here for you. If you need to be alone, I won't talk; if you need to be hugged, I will smile."

Future is turtly unknown and scared, but giving up is more scare for me now. I be who I believe is right; you be just the way you are. One step by step , everthing will be alright.

翼の折れた天使たち」～A

人は目に映る分かりやすいモノを信じてします。それが、価値あるモノかも確かめずに…でも、本当に大切なものは身近にある。空気のように見えないけれど、そこにある。

人們會相信眼睛看到的，容易理解的東西，也不確認那是否有價值。但是，真正重要的東西就在身邊，像空氣一樣看不見，但確實存在。

I always scared when you left me alone 'cause I so afraid of losing you. But I didn't know you are always besides me and by my side even your body is miles away from me. You are not gone.

The things that money could buy are not priceless and valuable, the priceless things are not easy to be seem and to be find. Once if you get it, don't let it go. That is what I says to myself every day now.

You are my priceless treasure。

一人で

It's not lonely when I just be with myself.But, it is lonely when I think about you.
I dreamed about you last night. Is that because I missed you before I sleep?

It is always hard to get out of the dream, and find out everything is dream.

I don't want to dreaming about you. I don't want to know you are not beside me. I am into my own fight, wish to dream about you before I sleep and wish I didn't dream about you after I got up.

I am not lonely just by myself. But when every small things remind me about you, I feel lonley as coldest winter.

Just by myself is not a scared thing, the scared thing is once you know the feelings of be with someone you love, and lose it.

I MISS U.