Key to My Karma: June 2011

6/02/2011

Doubt

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I try to tell myself that everyone has doubt about themselves and the life. I guess I try to make myself feel better.

I saw Risa's Facebook. She looks like is living in her dream. Great job, look beautiful, happy, and have fun. I look at Shanshan Wang. She is dressing up everyday in expensive clothes, look in her best in all those years, with parents by her side. I look at Sherry. Having good time with her life, have whatever she wants to have.

I look at my life....

It is scary to make any mistake. I am worried, for many things. It's no one's fault but mine. If I had clear mind, know what I need, listened to my parents, did the right things, followed the right path.....I wouldn't be at this sad place now. I wouldn't even look old now, I would still look young, beautiful, with simply and pure mind.

Will I ever be alright? Will my life ever be alright? Am I fall in the bottom yet? I worried. A lot.

Keep it real

"Sue Sylvester’s not afraid to shake things up. You know, I am tired of hearing people complain, “I am riddled with this disease,” or “I was in that tsunami.” To them I say, shake it up a bit. Get out of your box. Even if that box happens to be where you’re living. I’ll often yell at homeless people, “Hey, how’s that homelessness working out for you? Give not being homeless a try, huh?” You know something, Ohio? It’s not easy to break out of your comfort zone. People will tear you down. Tell you that you shouldn’t have bothered in the first place. But let me tell you something. There’s not much of a difference between a stadium full of cheering fans and an angry crowd screaming abuse at you. They’re both just making a lot of noise. How you take it is up to you. Convince yourself they’re cheering for you. You do that, and someday they will. "