When did the leaves turn yellow?

I still saw orange leaves on the trees just couple days ago, but there seems to be nothing left up there right now. Fall came faster every year, and I still don't know what future will be like.

Well... I can't write like I did before. Just wrote about life, love, fun or whatever just happened. It's seems so long ago that I could find every little enjoyment out of life. Days gone by same as yesterday, and I wonder if this is the way adult life should be.

I think I do worry or think too much a lot of times. That kept me far from the dream which I want to have. I just feel helpless sometimes 'cause I don't know what to do. I know it is becasue I don't ask for help either. Well...I guess I can't change myself to have this kind of pride.

Anyway,

Just haven't update for a while, wanted to write something about my life.

Everything is fine, not the best it can be, but I am still here~!

今日有雨

窗外在下雨，

不知道什麽地方出了什麽事，警車救火車救護車全都從窗前開過去；
淋得濕淋淋的馬路上反射的都是讓人煩心的警燈。

這樣的天氣，正好配上這樣的心情。

不知是否又要度過一個灰色的冬。

什麽都救不了人心。

認真

原來，認真是個很沉重的詞

即使你想認真的對待，

別人不一定會想，因爲太沉重。

認認真真的對待生活，有時候也是一種錯。

忽然的寂寞

觉得可能有很久都没有察觉什么是寂寞了，就在无意之间悄悄的来到。

原来，不论如何的习惯了一个人的生活，寂寞还是会像秋季的流感一样，在不经意之间，侵袭。

所以，我不想恋爱，不想等待，不想和人分享幸福。

什么白纸？

被人说我现在还是一张白纸，可以任意的作画。

这样说我的人，根本不了解我。